The cost of you

My killer addiction
Is no ordinary addiction
On the contrary, it's more of an affliction
With a mean misson
It's constantly beating me to submission
It came without my permission
And refuses to give me an intermission
It's hitting
Splitting
Like nuclear fission
It's an affliction that gets rougher
Every time I beat it, it comes back tougher
A disease that makes me suffer
But i can't run for cover
Wherever i go it's there
Like fucking headlice in your hair
Curing needs extra special care
But i still don't dare
And i can't
And i shan't
Because the pain i feel
Is a dose of what's real
And after all, that's the whole deal
Pain for a while
Accompanied by random crying
A hint of lying
And the feeling of my soul dying
Is all the cost of being near to you
And for all that it is, it still makes me smile