Goodbye

I was drunk
Climbed to the roof
Contemplated the fall
I cried
For an hour or too
Then walked back through the door

I sat
Thought about my life
Why do i suffer so
Its not that bad
Greater than most
Why the fuck cant i cope

I'm here
Sitting at the table
I can see the ceiling move
It's been over two weeks since i saw you
Too long for me to hope
So i drown my sorrows in a bottle
Don't care much to survive
Some days i wish i wake up
Some days i wish i die

Only two people really care
Two people will miss me
My dear old mother
And my best friend for the past two years
I can't just go and leave them
Neither my nephew too
So when contemplating the jump
I cry because of them

Leaving some people this way
Should always be a sin
Is it really that selfish
Or am i just scared

I'm holding on till the 1st
February at most
If my life still sucks
Then goodbye cruel world