Elliot? Please don't be dead.

Compulsively i sit there
Try to think of words to say
Open my mouth to speak
But silence
I just stare straight ahead
I close my mouth
And think once again
I go to speak
Only to forget my place
I scream, let it all out
It is too late

What did i do?
I wish i knew
I know i screwed up
What did i do?
This guilt is too much
Can't handle it
I'm sorry i couldn't help

Save me,
I'm sinking down
Lower and lower
To the point of no return
This madness
Insanity
Has a grip
Too strong on me
Help me
Before i'm too far gone

I know its a cheap shot
The only thing i can say
I'm sorry i waited
To voice my concern
Are you still there?
Please don't be gone
Elliot?
Are you okay?
Please say yes?

I'm here for you buddy, if the meds ever mess with your head, please tell me before you do anything rash and please, please, please stay in contact, i need you as much as you said you need me.